Kamis, 12 Agustus 2010
shocked and speechless
Sabtu, 07 Agustus 2010
before after
Sabtu, 03 Juli 2010
x5 trip to pangandaran 28-30 juni 2010
tepat seminggu yang lalu gue menghabiskan hari-hari yang indah bareng x5 tercinta ke pangandaran. gue berangkat sekitar jam 08.30 setelah berkumpul di SMAN 3 Bandung. kita dibimbing oleh Bu Santy dan Bu Ika. kita pake bis big bird sedang (pewe loh busnya) hehe. nah, kita menempuh perjalanan kurang lebih sekitar 6 jam dari bandung. selama diperjalanan, gue cuma bisa diem aja karena gue ga ada temen sebangku di bis. haha sedih. pertamanya sama rifqi, cuma dia pindah ke depan dan berakhir sama afton -,- haha. oke deh gue terima-terima aja. nyampe sana, kita langsung beberes di kamar masing-masing. gue kebagian sekamar dengan tina dan tami. setelah mendapatkan kamar, kita langsung jalan-jalan ke kamar-kamar lain untuk melihat keadaan sekitar. abis itu, kami sekelas langsung jalan-jalan ke pantai barat. sampe disana, cowo-cowo langsung nyebur ke pantai. kalo cewe-cewe mah cuma babaseuhan doang di pinggir pantai. tapi, kalo irin mah langsung nyebur. nah, disana tiba-tiba gue pusing. mata gue berkunang-kunang dan berubah jadi item. wow, gue ga bisa liat apa-apa. akhirnya, gue dipapah ke pinggir pantai dan langsung duduk di bongkahan kayu. gue disuruh ga mengahadap pantai dulu. tau ga gue kenapa? ternyata gue mabok laut. haha berasa kampring banget ih dapet penyakit gituan. jujur, gue baru pertama kali dapet penyakit gituan. okelah, selama setengah jam gue nenangin diri di pinggir pantai. nah, itu foto pertama kita di pantai dan di foto itu juga gue abis mabok laut. haha.
back to penginapan, akhirnya kita semua mandi sore, solat dan kembali ke ruang tengah untuk makan malam bareng. asik bangetlah ngumpul kayak gitu. nah, abis itu kita balik ke kamar masing-masing. baru beberapa menit sampe kamar, tiba-tiba aji goya afton ngajak jalan-jalan malem ke pantai. yang ikut itu gue huri ajel fatiya ica bu santy bu ika. akhirnya, kita caooo ke pantai. pas nyampe pantai, dingin bangeeeeet. anginnya gede banget. tapi, pemandangan di pantainya asik banget walopun emang ga keliatan apa-apa. tapi gue bisa menikmati pantai itu. nah, sampe ke kamarnya aul, ternyata mereka lagi ngaji. wow, kenapa yah? ternyata mereka bertiga ngerasa ga enak di kamar. tami dan tina takut untuk tidur di kamar. okelah, kita bertiga pindah ke kamar aul dengan ngegotong kasur segede naon. nah, setelah riweuh mindahin kasur, akhirnya gue tina tami tidur ngampar di tengah kamar ngadep tv. akhirnya, kami pun terlelap setelah jam 23.30 WIB.
besoknya, kita langsung pergi ke pantai untuk main air. katanya, hari kedua itu kita wajib nyebur. oke, saya nyebur. hahaha. pertamanya masih jaim, cuma kekecebekan doang. setelah lama kelamaan, gue nyebur dan menghadap ombak. gilaaa, asik bangeeet. karena ada yang bosen main air terus, akhirnya parada bikin rumah pasir. tapi, sayangnya kena ombak teruus. padahal udah dibikin saluran air. haha berasa balik lagi jadi anak kecil ih. hehe tapi asik tau main pasir teh (?) nah, abis itu kita pulang untuk mandi, dan siap-siap untuk pergi ke pasir putih lewat cagar alam.
sesampainya cagar alam, kita makan siang dulu di bis dengan menu ayam bakar yg gede banget. abis makan, semuanya turun dari bis dan jalan ke cagar alam. masuk ke cagar alam, kita di briefing dulu sama pemandunya. sambil di briefing, kita juga dikasih tau jangan ngeluarin makanan, soalnya kalo ngeluarin makanan ntar makanannya di rebut sama monyetnya. okedeh. abis itu kita jalan-jalan mengunjungi gua-gua yang ada di sekitar cagar alam.
daaan, tujuan terakhir yang kita sambangi ke sana adalaaaaah -----> pasir putih. ayeeeey. disana kita ngeliat tambak ikan, batu-batu kerikil, dan juga pantai pastinya. tapi, pantai putih ini dangkal banget. kedalaman tambak ikan aja cuma 2 meter. abis itu, seperti biasa kita foto bareng. abis itu, kita langsung ke tempat peminjaman sepeda untuk sekalian juga shopping. asyeeeek. kita shopping di rumah neneknya fatiya. haha saking kalapnya, gue jadi orang yang shoppingnya terbanyak. gue shopping baju-baju dan tas rotan. baju-baju itu unutk 5 orang bow, matakna loba oge hehe. abis itu, kita semua mandi lagi dan siap-siap unutk barbeque-an bareng. kado-kado juga dikumpulin untuk dikasih nomer. nah, abis itu kita babakaran depan kamar gue. hehe. asyik juga nih. kita bakar jagung, fillet ayam, sosis dan bikin popcorn. tapi, saking lapernya aku aul ajel fatiya huri tami tina ica lulu pada masak mie. hihi kita udah ga kuat lagi. nah, babakarannya selesai jam 22.00 WIB. sambil nonton world cup juga, kita makan bareng. abis itu, kita bikin forum kelas dan yang pertama ngomong adalah nuri. abis itu gue dan seterusnya ga apal. nah, pas bagian lulu, lulu nangis karena sedih cewe-cewe nya ga bisa sekompak cowo-cowo. well, gue juga merasakan apa yang dirasakan lulu. kenapa? gue itu koji dan gue yang paling tau keadaan cewe-cewe. emang, apa yang dibilang lulu itu ada benernya juga. kesimpulan dari acara forum itu adalah jangan sombong kalo ketemu dan jangan lupain x5. abis itu kita ngadain acara tuker kado. hehe. kado gue dimenagkan oleh goya. hadiahnya adalah mainan anak kecil yang bisa bunyi-bunyi. hehe. gue dapet rubik dari ica. abis itu, kita beberes ruang tengah untuk dipake tidur cowo-cowo.
bseoknya, kita beberes untuk pulang. jujur, gue ngerasa berat untuk ninggalin x5. kenapa? karena begitu banyak kenangan yang gue torehkan bersama x5. pertamanya gue adalah anak yang pendiem di kelas dan sampe akhirnya ketauan juga aib gue yang gila, girdes, gamau diem dll. selama diperjalanan, gue cuma bisa diem sambil dengerin lagu. hehe pas pulang akhirnya gue dapet temen sebangku ---> rai! hehehe.
sampe di bandung, yang turun duluan adalah lulu karena dia ga dijemput orang tuanya. dan, selama diperjalanan kita cuma bisa ketawa-ketawa sambil dangdutan :D. sampe di 3, kita semua ngambil barang-barangnya masing-masing dan duduk menunggu yang ngejemput. sedih rasanya untuk pisah sama x5, kelas yang kompak, gokil, rame, gatau malu dan antusias ini. tapi, gue cuma pengen bilang makasih buat x5 karena udah bikin hari-hari gue berkesan di kelas x ini. makasih juga buat ilham karena udah jadi km terbaik semampu dia. makasih juga buat irin tomi ica nuri yang udah bikin liburan kita sukses. last but not least, MAKASIH BUAT X5! i'll miss you all of you. X5, I LOVE YOUUUUUU :-*
Selasa, 22 Juni 2010
fuck damn shit, you're so full of shit
waktu itu, temen-temen sekelas gue pergi ke ciwidey. awalnya gue dibolehin unutk pergi. oke, gue bilang iya unutk konfirmasi. tapi, secara tiba-tiba gue ngecancel semuanya hanya karena ada gempa? APA-APAAAAAAAAAAAAN? yaaa itu mah hal yang sangat tak terduga untuk terjadi. sekarang, gue mau ke pangandaran. gue udah konfirmasi ikut. tapi, gue ga boleh hanya karena acaranya ga sah? anjing. alesan anjir. you've ruined my holiday. lu pengen bikin gue ga punya kenangan di kelas x5. sama sekali. gue sama sekali ga punya kenangan apa-apa di x5. anjiiiiiiiiiir. aing ga sukaaa dikasih harapan kosoooong. jadi, selama ini gue sia-sia aja gitu yah dateng tiap hari ke sekolah hanya unutk tahu semua perkembangan tentang liburan bareng temen-temen. semuanya useless. mending kalo ntar teh ada liburan? sok da gue mah yakin ntar ga akan ada liburan. terus, ngapain juga gue diem di rumah? aing pengen liburan woy. aing sangat butuh akan ketenangan. sadar ga sih kalo aing udah stress gara-gara mikirin sekolah? dan sekarang aing ga dibolehin liburan? you're so full of shit.
Jumat, 11 Juni 2010
hm
Sabtu, 05 Juni 2010
fisika
nah, sekarang gue mulai ngerti kenapa fisika itu menjadi sesuatu hal yang menakutkan bagi kebanyakan anak sma. ternyata, fisika itu ga semudah yang gue bayangkan dulu. sekarang, fisika juga yang menjadi hal yang selalu bikin gue takut unutk menghadapinya. sekarang, gue udah ga berani untuk belajar fisika lagi. kenapa? karena gue selalu merasa gue ga bisa ngejar itu semua. logika gue ga sampe dan otak gue juga ga kuat untuk menghadapi itu semua. setiap gue tanya orang lain, "lu belajar apa fisikanya?". mereka selalu jawab listriklah, optiklah, apalah, intinya beda banget sama apa yang gue terima di sekolah. emang, gue ngerti kalau sekolah gue itu beda banget sama sekolah lain. kurikulumnya juga beda. tapi, kenapa sih hal yang bikin gue mati kutu itu adalah seorang fisika? gue sama sekali ga ngerti fisika. ngerti, dikit banget. padahal, si babeh itu jago benjeeeeeeeeets fisikanya dan bisa dibilang guru senior fisika. hem. gue jadi ngerasa malu-maluin si babeh. maafin ya beeeh :-(
emang sih, gue juga dulu salah strategi karena gue ga nanya apa yang gue ga ngerti di fisika. tapi, setiap gue mau nanya, si babehnya lagi sibuklah, ada kerjaanlah, atau berbagai macam halangan yang bikin gue ga bisa nanya. nah, bagian si babeh guenya free, guenya yang punya banyak prlah, banyak tugaslah, maleslah, atau apaun yang bikib gue males dan takut unutk nanyain fisika. hem semakin sedihlah gue kalau nginget-nginget gimana gue belajar fisika, apalagi kalau belajar fisika sendiri. gue cuma bisa ngerjain beberapa soal, kalo ga bisa sih cuma ngeliatin soal sambil bingung, kalo udah stres ngerjain soal gue corat-coret di buku diary, kalo udah frustasi banget gue cuma bisa nangis. dan kalau gue udah ga kuat neghadepinnya, obat termujarab gue kalau ngehadepin soal fisika adalah tidur. hehehe
sekarang sih, gue cuma bisa berharap kalau guru fisika gue ngasih nilai lulus kkm dan gue berharap gue bisa masuk ipa. terus, gue bisa meneruskan cita-cita gue unutk kuliah di hi-unpad atau hi-unpar untuk menjadi seorang duta besar untuk indonesia. amin
Rabu, 02 Juni 2010
dilema terbesar gue = sayuran
jadi, seminggu kebelakang ini gue ga bisa boker. ga tau kenapa, ujug-ujug gue ga bisa boker. seperti biasa, si mamah nyalahin gue karena gue ga mau makan sayur dan buah-buahan. karena gue gatel pengen boker tapi ga bisa-bisa, jadi gue suruh si mamah untuk beli obat buat ngelancarin boker. entah dulcolax entah apalah namanya. nah, si mamah beli obat itu pas gue sekolah. oiya, hari ini juga pas banget sama hari pertama uas loh. pelajarannya kim bi sos. hem, cacat semua ah hahaha. back to cerita inti. nah pas gue pulang sekolah, gue dengan sangat semangat minum obat itu. di petunjuknya sih disuruh makan 2-3 tablet sehari. wanjir, ga akan over dosis gitu yah? terus, gue bilang deh ke mamah, "mah disuruhnya 2-3 tablet? gimana dong?". "ya tadi mamah nanya ke penjualnya, makan 1 aja", kata mamah gue. ya udah deh, akhirnya gue makan 1 tablet doang. okedeh, gue tunggu. baru 15 menit, hasrat pengen boker gue muncul lagi secara tiba-tiba. eh, pas jongkok di wc, gue ga bisa boker. shit. yang ada gue malah nahan sakit gara-gara ngedennya. haha. ya udahlah, gue curhat ke si mamah sambil jongkok. "mah sakit mah. ga kuat". gue berasa kayak anak kecil ga bisa ee aja ini mah. ya udahlah, dengan muka hopeless gue keluar kamar mandi.
akhirnya, si mamah nyuruh si teteh buat beli vegeta. oke dah, gue minum. sejam kemudian, oh yeah gue bisa boker. walaupun dengan ngeden-ngeden sekuat tenaga. ya gpp deh yang penting hasrat gue pengen boker terbayar sudah. gue udah ga punya utang lagi sama wc. hahaha. pas udah selesai, gue bahagianyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tiada tara. kayak yang abis ditembak si kecengan (?). hahahaha. abis itu gue mandi dan nulis blog ini deeeeeh. hehehe
well, ternyata makan sayuran dan buah itu banyak banget manfaatnya. selain menambah serat biar gampang boker, juga merawat kulit biar ga kering kayak kulit gue. yaaaa nasihat gue sih, banyak-banyak makan buah sama sayur aja deh biar ga susah boker kayak gue dan biar punya kulit bagus (lembab maksudnya). :D
Senin, 31 Mei 2010
damn shit fuck aaaaarrrrrrrrrgggggggggggh
saya suka bebersih itu karena saya malu. setiap saya ke rumah temen, rumah temen saya itu rapi, bersih dan nyaman. lah rumah gue? boro-boro. orang-orang yang ngehuninya aja ga pedulian apalagi orang lain. cik atuh kalian teh sadar kebersihan juga. gimana orang lain mau peduli sama kita kalo kitanya juga ga pedulian?
saya itu bukannya SOK BERSIH, SOK NGATUR ATO SOK-SOK AN, tapi emang SAYA HANYA INGIN PUNYA RUMAH YANG BERSIH DAN NYAMAN. that's it!
Sabtu, 29 Mei 2010
ga penting
aduuh, ko sekarang gue udah ga pernah ada inspirasi ya buat nulis blog? kan kasian kalo misalnya blog gue bulukan karena ga pernah gue isi. hem -__- kali ini, gue ga mau ngomongin masalah kecengan dulu oke. cape. hahahaha. tapi, kayaknya aneh aja kalo gue ga ngomongin masalah itu. haha. kenapa yaaaa semakin hari, hari-hari gue semakin kelam dan galau? cacat ih. gue pengen hari-hari ceria gue kembali seperti dulu kala, disaat gue masih suka ngobrol sama si kacamata. haha (heaaa balik deui ke masalah kecengan). hahaha. oiya, gue itu bisa disebut plin-plan loooh dalam masalah kayak gini. terkadang gue bilang "aduh kangen kacamata" tapi terkadang juga gue bilang "aduh kacamata, enyah aja lo dari hadapan gue" hahaha. emang ye, cinta itu bisa bikin gue pusing untuk ngehadepinnya. sebenernya gue itu pengen fokus aja ke pelajaran, tapi ga bisa. dia itu emang yang bikin gue galau. dia itu emang yang bikin gue kayak gini. hahaha. aduuuh, gue pengen berubah ah.
Sabtu, 08 Mei 2010
bukan waktunya untuk ngebahas kacamata
emang gue ngeceng orang itu dari kelas 7, jauh sebelum gue kenal si kacamata. tapi itupun dulu dan gue juga ga ngeceng-ngeceng amat. dia itu sekedar dijadikan tempat gue curhat doang. haha. lah sekarang? setelah gue sering smsan lagi sama orang itu, gue kembali ngerasa perasaan ngeceng itu. oh tidaaaak. tapi, dia itu datang disaat yang sangat tepat menurut gue. kenapa? dia dateng disaat gue pengen banget ngelupain si kacamata, dia juga dateng disaat gue lagi galau banget. terus, dia juga dateng disaat gue butuh banget hiburan. dia yang selama ini udah buat gue ketawa lagi, dia yang selama ini udah buat gue kembali semangat dalam meniti hidup (hahahahakcuh), yaaaaa the point is that he light up my life. hahaha. dia itu tadi masang status ym "i'm trying to make you move and i'm trying to make you feel as i do". nah, gue bingung. itu buat siapa? buat gue? ah jangan kegeeran dulu nak. dan gue juga masang status "so, if i feel the same way with you, what would you do?". hahahaha.
selama ini, emang gue selalu berharap kalo si kacamata yang bikin gue hidup lagi, yang selalu nyemangatin gue, yang nemenin gue belajar, yang nemenin gue menjalani hari-hari gue dari bangun tidur sampe tidur lagi. yang setiap pagi suka jadi jam beker pribadi saya, yang tiap pagi suka sms yang isinya cuma "heh" ato "hei" atoo "hmmmmmm". guy, i think i love you. i'm in the dark and you're my light. i'm going blind and you're my sight. i feel alive. you set me free, i hold you tight. you're in my heart and i'm the knife, i feel alive.
Senin, 03 Mei 2010
bingung
aduuh, mana waktu itu gue pernah bilang "aduuh ayoo bangun jam beker pribadi kesayangan sayaaa". hahaha. emang sih via sms, tapi ko gue ngerasanya kayak yang udah pacaran aja gitu sama orang itu? hem. haduuuh, udah ah. gue bingung mau cerita apalagi. hahaha.
Jumat, 30 April 2010
my heart has been broken by someone
emang iya? emang saya bisa kayak gitu? emang saya cukup sabar untuk itu? emang kamu mau saya terus kayak gini? jawaban untuk semua pertanyaannya adalah engga. saya ga cukup sabar untuk ngehadepin cowo kayak kamu mah. saya ga kuaaat. hahaha cacat. emang saya suka cowo cool, keren, kalem kayak kamu. tapi kalo untuk teruuus sabar, saya harus sabar sampe berapa taun lagi? saya harus nunggu sampe berapa taun lagi? dulu, kamu pernah janji untuk ga dingin ke saya, untuk ga judes sama saya. tapi, kenapa akhirnya malah sangat sangat ga enak kayak gini?
dulu, mungkin saya sempet sangat tergila gila sama kamu. kegantengan kamu, kebaikan kamu, kekerenan kamu, semuanya! sekarang? mungkin emang saya masih tergila gila sama kamu dan saya sangat berharap untuk jadi pacar kamu. sangat. tapi, kalo akhirnya kamu ngediemin saya, nyuekkin saya, nganggep saya ga ada, emang enak? kamu mau digituin sama saya? engga kan? semua orang juga pasti gamau digituin bim. emang kamu teh kenapa sih jadi kayak gini? kenapa kamu teh? malu setelah saya nyatain perasaan saya ke kamu? malu hasilnya cewe yang suka sama kamu ga cantik kayak sahabat kamu itu? malu kalo hasilnya emang ga sesuai sama minta kamu? apa sih yang bikin kamu kayak gini ganteeeeeeng?
pertama saya kenal kamu, saya pikir kalo kamu teh ga sama kayak cowo cowo lain yang pernah saya kecengin. taunyaaaaa? sama ajaa. ga ada bedanya. pertama saya kenal kamu, saya seneeeeeeeng banget ada cowo yang bisa deket sama saya sampe sampe suka pulang bareng, jalan bareng, apa apa bareng. curhat curhatan, ato apalaaaah gitu yang bikin kita selalu bareng. saya pengen banget waktu itu diulang lagi. saya pengen teruuus nikmatin waktu waktu disaat pulang bareng, jalan bareng, curhat bareng, atoo apapun itu. waktu, kenapa sih kamu ga bisa diulang lagi? saya pengen waktu itu bisa di rewind ato di skip. hahaha.
dulu, saya pernah mikir kalo kamu itu emang cowo yang pas buat saya. bisa nemenin saya, bisa nerima saya, bisa jadi tempat curhat saya, bisa jadi temen sahabat pacar ato mungkin suami kali yaaa. dulu, saya juga pernah mikir kalo kamu itu bakal jadi future husband saya. dulu, saya juga pernah mikir kalo kamu itu perfect banget. emang sih, di dunia itu ga ada yg perfect. kamu itu ganteng, baik, soleh, pinter, ramah, keren, lucu, aaah pokoknya bagus deeh. kamu sama saya itu punya banyak kesamaan di bidang hobi. sama sama suka basket dan kamera. tapi, kenapa akhirnya kayak gini?
ganteeeng, i'm taking back my faith. i'm taking back my life. i don't care for who you are, cause you taught me how to break a heart. how to break a heart. how to break a heart babe. cause you taugh me how to break a heart. you couldn't love me so why won't you leave me? alone is the only place i want to be.
Sabtu, 10 April 2010
he taught me how to break a heart
gue sekarang ga boleh terlalu berharap dan kegeeran sama si itu. mamake, tapi kayaknya gue ga bisaaaaaaaaaa. tapi, lu harus bisa shaaaan. oh gosh. i don't know what i must do when i meet with him at tuesdaaaaay. gue berharap, kita kaga diem dieman aja deh, dan gue juga berharap guenya kaga lebay lagi sama orang itu. hahaha. wish me luck.
Rabu, 07 April 2010
I Love You
It has been 3 years since I know and met you
Our course is a place that made us meet and known each other
But my heart beating to you since 1 year ago
I've never realized that I was fall in love with you
But now, I realized all of that
I don't know what to do and I don't know what to say
I've fallen in love with you for 1 year
But must I shoot you? and I don't think so
So baby, please tell me how to make you feel the same way with me
My friends told me that we'll be a good couple if we are as one team
Oh please tell me how to make you feel the same way with me
When I'm with you, my heart beating hardly
When I'm with you, my hair so bad I think but I don't care
Cause a minute with you is worth more than a thousand day without you here by my side
When I'm with you, I can't control myself because I'm overjoyed to near with you
to stand near you baby
Must I tell about me and you here? Nope
Must I tell about how I feel here? Yep
Baby, do you want to know how I feel?
I just feel in love and maybe that will grow stronger
I love you, you you you you
Oh yes you baby
hehehe ini lirik kedua gue dan sama sekali belum ada nadanya. ada yang mau bikinin jugaaa?
The Only Guy
At that time, you were so cool to me
You've never said anything to me and also you were so calm
But now, I know you
Now, you're so talkative but never active to me
Yeah, it's you
You, you, you, you
You're the only guy that makes me sing out loud
You're the only guy that makes me smile and laugh
You're the only guy that makes me cry
Oh baby, yes you're the only guy that makes me feel love
Baby, I've been felt so desperate for you
You makes me cry at that time
You makes me feel angry, jealous and sad
But baby, I've never thought that I'd survive you
But now, I feel so in love with you more than before
You, oh baby yes you're the only guy that makes me feel love
Hey you with that black curly hair
You, with that big minus in your glasses
You, with that lovely smile and laugh
Youuuuu, a guy who has ver good name
Oh yes you, you're the only guy that makes me feel love
I wanna have you in my arms baby
I wanna hug you close and I'll never wanna let you go
I wanna hear, feel, and see your laugh, face and smile
And everything! everything that you have
I love you. Oh baby, i love you so much
I don't care with what you've done to me
But the most important thing is I love you and that's it!
And I won't worry my life away if I have you in my life
Baby, how do I live without you?
itu adalah salah satu lirik pertama ciptaan gue. hahaha. emang, gue baru bikin liriknya doang dan itu gue dedikasiin ke kecengan gue doooooong. hahaha. oke, ada yang mau bikinin nada lagunya? gue terima, hahaha.
Jumat, 02 April 2010
my birthday and desperate for kacamata
yaaa kayak sekarang aja. sampe detik ini, sampe gue ngepost blog ini, orang yang gue sayang (statusnya masih kecengan haha) SAMA SEKALI belum bilang apa apa ke gue. apa dia ga nyadar gitu? ah ga mungkin. apa dia ga punya pulsa gitu? ah alesan yang standar banget. buktinya, sobatnya aja bisa ngucapin walopun di wall fb. lah? ada apa dengam orang yang udah setaun kebelakangan ini gue sayang sampe sampe dia ga ngucapin apa apa ke gue? padahal, seminggu sebelum gue ulang tahun aja, gue udah sms ke dia "eh minggu depan GUE ULANG TAUN. gue mau nraktir elu oke?". masa sih dia ga nyadar padahal gue udah sms dengan kata kata yang hampir sama, yang ngasih tau kalo gue ULANG TAUN. apa sampe segitunya kah cow yang pendiem nan pasif itu? emang sih katanya, ngehadapi cowo yang pendiem nan pasif itu butuh kesabaran yang sangat sangat besar. tapi, kalo misalnya di gituin terus, kesabarannya harus yang sebesar apalagi? harus gimana lagi gue? setiap hari selama setaun kebelakang ini, hal yang bisa gue lakukan adalah SABAR. tapi sabar juga ada batasnya sayaaaaaaang. mungkinkah gue berpaling dari orang yang selama setaun ini udah gue keceng? jawabannya : yaaa mungkin mungkin aja kalo dianya masih kayak gini. tapi, kalo untuk sekarang KAYAKNYA gue masih bisa bersabar. kenapa? ya karena gue udah terlalu suka dan sayang kali ya sama orang itu. kayak lagu take it from here-justin timberlake "And when you see that can't nobody hold you like me cause I love you". sekarang, gue sangat sangat putus asa buat ngehadapi orang itu. tapi ko kayaknya orang itu TETEP GA SADAR akan kehadiran dia di hati gue (hahahakcuh). hahaha. lebaynyoooo.
udah ah. gue mah sekarang hanya berharap orang itu ngasih ucapan aja ke gue sekalipun dia ngasihnya telat juga. i love you soooooooooooo much milky way! baby, i hate to admit it but i'm so in love with you. well it's not a secret anymore, i can't keep it anymore. i hate to admit it but i'm so in love with you. well it's not a secret anymore, I'M ADDICTED TO YOUR LOVE baby.
Kamis, 01 April 2010
birthday love friends
gue kangen pulang bareng lagi. gue kangen seangkot bareng lagi. gue kangen ngobrol sama dia. gue kangen ketawanya dia kalo lagi ngobrol sama gue. gue kangen senyumannya dia yang selalu mewarnai acara pulang bareng kita. gue kangen senyuman dia yang selalu membuat gue bangkit. GUE KANGEN SEMUANYA DARI bima yang dulu. well, gue ga peduli mau dia baca apa kaga blog gue yang ini. gue juga ga peduli lagi apa kata orang lain kalo orang lain baca blog gue yang ini. ya, gue cuma pengen bilang kalo GUE KANGEN KAMU YANG DULU, bim. andai waktu itu bisa diulang, tapi ga mungkin. babeh gue bilang :
"waktu adalah besaran fisika yang tidak bisa kembali lagi ke nol"ya, itu semua bener. artinya, kita ga bisa mengulang kembali masa masa dulu. masa masa dimana kita lagi seneng, lagi bahagia doang. kita juga harus ngelewatin masa masa sedih juga. babeh gue juga bilang
"hidup itu bagaikan grafik sinus"ngerti ga? jadi, hidup itu ada saatnya kita diatas dan ada saatnya kita dibawah. jadi, jangan kaget kalo biasanya kita ada diataaaas terus, eeeh ujug ujug kita kelempar ke bawah. nah, itu maksudnya. quote ini tuh gue tujukan buat temen temen gue di kelas yang suka shock kalo dapet nilai jelek. emang, saya ngerti ko kalo kalian itu ga biasa dapet rengking jelek. tapi, masa kalian mau diatas terus? masa kalian ga mau ngasih temen temen yang lain berkesempatan dapet rengking bagus? well, sebenernya mah rengking itu bukan patokan untuk menentukan kita pinter ato bodoh. semua anak yang masuk sma 3 itu pinter, kalo bodo kenapa juga bisa masuk 3? hahaha.
balik lagi ke cerita cinta saya. hahahahaapeu bangetlaaaah -____- , heeem saya sih berharap bangeeet yaaa kalo si kecengan saya itu baca blog saya semuanyaaa. hahaha. loh ko ga nyambung yah? hahaha. biarin ah. ga peduli. kacamata, walopun kamu emang bikin saya galau terus, anehnya saya teteeeeeeep aja suka sama kamu. kayak lagu westlife-sound of a broken heart, "i'd never thought that i'd survive you" hahaha. teruuus, kayak lagunya mariah carey ft luther vandross, "My love, there's only you in my life the only thing that's right my first love, you're every breath that I take you're every step I make". hahaha. banyak banget deh kayaknya lagu yang gue banget untuk kasus yang ini hahaha. love me-justin bieber, one less lonely girl-justin bieber. apalagi yaaa? hahaha. hem, intinya sih gue ga akan gampang untuk ngelupain si kacamata kalopun misalnya kita ga jadian. mungkin kita bisa jadi temen aja, ya ga kacamata? hahaha. tapi, kalo misalnya ga jadian, gue gamau banget kita jadi musuhan, jauhan kayak gini. anggep aja kita ga pernah punya masalah. hahaha. sebenernya sih, doa gue mah JADIAN DOONG SAMA KACAMATA. hahaha. tapi kalo gue terlalu berharap jauh teuing dan ga kesampaian kan ga mau jugaaa. hem. semoga bisa jadian hahahaha. smooch smooch :-*
Kamis, 25 Maret 2010
my seventh meme
TEN TO START :D
1. Are you single?
yes, and i hope i will get boyfriend soon haha
2. Are you happy?
hem, a little bit
3. Are you bored?
yes
4. Are you naked?
NO!
5. Are you a blonde?
no
6. Are you moody?
YEP! hahaha
7. Are you a lover/hater?
lover
8. Are you feel hot/cold?
warm, hahaa
9. Are you Irish?
i hope so, but i'm indonesian actually, and i love it!
10. Are you Asian?
yeeeeeees!
TEN FACTS.
1. Name: Nurshanti Kusuma
2. Nicknames: Shanti
3. Birth mark: there is no birth mark in my body
4. Hair color: brown
5. Natural hair color: he?
6. Eye color: black
7. Height: 164 cm
8. Facebook Mood: in love, haha
9. Favorite color: red, brown, black
10. One Place to Visit: ujung berung, hahaha
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. Do you believe in love at first sight?
yes
2. Do you believe in soul mates?
yes
3. Have you ever been hurt emotionally?
yes
4. Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
no, i think
5. Have you ever been cheated on?
yes
6. Have you ever liked someone and not told them?
YES! HAHAHAHA
7. Are you afraid of commitment?
sometimes yes. but from now on, no. hahaha
8. Who was the last person you hugged?
i forgot
9. Who was the last person you kissed?
hahaha, i've never been kissed someone haha
TEN THIS OR THAT.
1. Love or lust?
love
3. Cats or dogs?
both
4. A few best friends or many regular friends?
both
5. Television or internet?
both
6. Chinese Or Indian?
chinese
7. Wild night out or romantic night in?
borh
8. Money or Happiness?
both, hahahaha
9. Night or day?
both
10. MSN or phone?
phone
TEN HAVE YOU EVER.
1. Been caught sneaking out?
what? no i think
2. Been skinny dipping?
no
3. Stolen?
no
4. Bungee jumped?
no, and i hope that will happened soon hahaha
5. Lied to someone you liked?
no and never
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker?
what?
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back?
i've never had a boyfriend first haha
9. Cried because you lost a pet?
YES! HAHAHA
10. Wanted to disappear?
no
TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER.
1. Smile or eyes?
both
2. Light or dark hair?
dark hair
3. Hugs or kisses?
both
4. Shorter or taller?
taller
5. Intelligence or attraction?
both
6. Romantic or spontaneous?
both
7. Funny or serious?
funny
8. Older or Younger?
older
9. Outgoing or quiet?
outgoing
10. Sweet or Bad Ass?
sweet
TEN HAVE YOU’S.
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd?
yes
2. Ever done drugs?
no
3. Ever been pregnant?
no
5. Ever been on a cheer leading team?
hahaha no
6. Ever Been on a dance team?
yes
7. Ever been on a sports team?
yes
8. Ever been in a drama play/production?
no
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley?
no
10. Ever been in a rap video?
no
TEN LASTS.
1. Last phone call you made: i forget
2. Last person you hung out with: dahniar siti rahayu, ate j.cool at j.co
4. Last time you worked: 1 week ago
5. Last person you tackled: hem, i don't know
6. Last person you IM’d: i forget hahaha
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with: with my friends at school
9. Last thing you missed: of course my crush haha
10. Last thing you ate: noodle
my sixth meme
- What time did you get up this morning? at 7 o'clock
- Diamonds or pearls? diamond
- What was the last film you saw at the cinema? alice in wonderland
- What is your favourite TV show? take me out indonesia
- What did you have for breakfast? whatever with rice hahaha
- What is your middle name? kusuma
- What is your favorite cuisine? my mothers
- What foods do you dislike? sambal
- What is your favorite chip flavour? bbq
- What is your favourite CD at the moment? westlife where we are album
- What kind of vehicle do you drive? motorcycle
- Favourite sandwich? no, i don't like sandwich
- What characteristics do you despise? pemarah
- Favourite item of clothing? jeans and t shirt
- If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? france and bali
- What colour is your bathroom? krem
- What colour pants are you wearing? short pants hahaha
- Where would you retire to? i don't know
- Favourite time of the day? when tuesday and thursday come hahaha
- Where were you born? bandung
- What�s the last thing you ate? richoco
- If you were a crayon, what color would you be? red
- Favorite flower? rose
- What fabric detergent do you use? lux royal, hahaha
- Coke or Pepsi? coke
- Do you wish on stars? yes, sometimes
- What is your shoe size? 40
- Do you have any pets? NO!
- Last person you talked to on the phone? my mother
- What did you want to be when you were little? to be a singer like westlife hahaha
- What are you meant to be doing now? listen to jason mraz song
- What do you first notice about someone? his/her face, smile and laugh
- Siblings? yes
- What was your favourite toy as a child? barbie and lasy
- Summer or winter? summer. in indonesia there is no winter
- Hugs or Kisses? both
- Chocolate or vanilla? chocolate
- Who is most likely to respond? i don't know
- Who is least likely to respond? i don't know either
- Living arrangements? i don't understand hahaha
- When was the last time you cried? forget
- What is under your bed? dust
- How many countries have you visited? just indonesia
- In how many cities have you lived? like indonesia
- Favourite movie of all time? titanic
- Mountains or beach? both
- The current friend you have known the longest? tika sekar tanjung, my friend since i was in kindergarten
- Full names of your potential kids? sakti aryo kusuma, hahahah
- Usual bedtime? at 10 or 11
well, this is my sixth meme. gileee gue jadi addcit sama meme hahaha, cek it ot!
my fifth meme
well, this is my fifth meme actually. cek it ot!
1. Are your parents married or divorced?
married
2. Are you a vegetarian?
no
3. Do you believe in Heaven?
of course
4. Have you ever come close to dying?
nope
5. What jewelery do you wear 24/7?
i've never worn jewelery hahaha
6. Favorite time of day?
at 7 o'clock in the morning
7. Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
no
8. Do you wear makeup?
no
9. Ever have plastic surgery?
hahaha hell no!
11. What do you wear to bed?
pajamas, but sometimes i just wear tshirt and short
12. Have you ever done anything illegal?
what? nooo
13. Can you roll your tongue?
hahaha no
14. Do you tweeze your eyebrows?
no
15. What kind of sneakers?
converse
16.Do you believe in Abortions?
hem i on't know
17. What is your Hair color?
brown
18. Future child’s name?
sakti aryo kusuma, HAHAHAHAHA
19. Do you snore?
sometimes yes hahaha
20. If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?
france! hahha
21. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
no
22. If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
go to makkah
23. Gold or silver?
silver
24. Hamburger or hot dog?
hamburger
25. If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
nasi timbel with no sambal
26. City, beach or country?
beach
27. What was the last thing you touched?
my handphone
28. Where did you eat last?
richoco
29. When’s the last time you cried?
i forget hahaha
30. Do you read blogs?
of course yes
31. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
no, i wouldn't
32. Ever been involved with the police?
hahaha no
33. What’s your favourite shampoo conditioner and soap?
shampoo and conditioner is pantene, and soap is lifebuoy hahaha *iklan*
34. Do you talk in your sleep?
no
35. Ocean or pool?
pool hahaha
36. So, who has the original missing questions?
i don't know
37. Who would you take on a ménage à trois for a dirty weekend?
i don't know haha
38. Window seat or aisle?
window seat
39. Ever met anyone famous?
no
i don't know
41. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
hahaah yes
42. Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
oprah winfrey
43. Basketball or Football?
both of them
44. How long do your showers last?
20 minutes
45. Automatic or do you drive a stick?
automatic
46. Cake or ice cream?
both
47. Are you self-conscious?
hem yes
48. Have you ever drank so much you threw up?
no, i've never drank
49. Have you ever given money to a beggar?
noo!
50. Have you been in love?
of course yes
51. Where do you wish you were?
kacamata's house, just sit and watch what kacamata do in one day hahaha
52. Are you wearing socks?
no
53. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
hahaha no
54. Can you tango?
no, i can't. but i hope that i can do tango
55. Last gift you received?
forget
56. Last sport you played?
swimming
57. Things you spend a lot of money on?
buy dvds
58. Where do you live?
bandung
59. Where were you born?
bandung
60. Last wedding attended?
teteh sepupu gue61. Most hated food(s)?
vegetable
62. What’s your least fav.?
i don't know
63. Can you sing?
YES!
64. Last person you instant messaged?
meidina m amarsa :D
65. Last place you went on holiday?
subang
66. Favourite regular drink?
mineral water and coca cola
67. Current Song?
justin bieber - eeenie meenie
78. Tag 3 friends: Is anybody still reading this list?
hahaha males ah -____- :D
Rabu, 24 Maret 2010
my fourth meme
1.) What are you listening to right now?
westlife-close your eyes
2.) how do you style your hair?
hem, rambut sebahu warna coklat. sok sok bcl gitu. hahaha
3.) what are you wearing right now ?
white t-shirt with blue pants hahaha.
4.) what are you currently reading ?
breaking dawn
5.) Dumbest thing you've done this week?
ah, i forget. hahaha
6.) Have you named your computer? If so what's its name?
huh? is that silly thing? hahaha. my computer doesn't has a name. hahaha
7.) Theme song playing in the background as you die?
ran-nothing last forever
8.) What have you ever wanted to do in your life but never had the guts to do it?
told my crush that i loved him sooo much and bungee jumping
9.) What is your all time favorite movie?
titani. i love this film soo much. hahaha
10.) What is your weirdest habit?
i forget. hahaha
11.) What is your favorite color?
red, brown, black
12.) How much money do you think you are worth?
i have no money for these week. hahaha
13.) What is your fav food?
hem. meatball, nasi timbel with no sambal, nooddle, nasi goreng, baso tahu, and some junk food. hahaha
14.) Which languages do you wish you spoke?
sundanese, javanese, french, english, and japanese
15.) What is your biggest pet peeve?
i don't have pet anyway.
16.) What is the weirdest question you ever asked someone?
i forget. hahaha
17.)Who was your childhood idol?
westlife. and until now, they are my idol. hahaha
18.) favorite quote you've ever heard?
"waktu adalah besaran fisika yang tidak pernah kembali ke nol". babeh gue tuh yang ngomong. hahaha
19.)If you were in a band, what kind of music would you play and what instrument would you want to play?
jazz and pop. instrument? i just wanna to be the singer in that band. hahaha
20.) Tell me something you love about your room
hem. i have one room. it's upstairs at my home. my room is the room that nearest to computer and i love that! hahaha. hem. and i think my room is the neater room in my house. hahaha *sombongnyaaa*
akhirnyeee selesei juga nih. hahaha. this is my fourth meme. cek it ot!
my third meme
i dont like coffee hahaha
2. What are you reading now?
4. Are you registered to vote?
no, i'm not. i'm under 18hahaha
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
i don't think so
6. What do you think of hot dogs?
hm yummy
7. Favorite Song?
justin bieber-love me, justin timberlake-my love, justin bieber-eenine meenie
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
mineral water
9. Can you do push ups?
no! i hate push up or something like that hahaha
10. What was the name of your first boyfriend/girlfriend?
i've never had a boyfriend. hahahaa
11. What’s your favorite piece of jewelery?
singing out loud, writing lyrics song, watching movie, listening music
13. Do you work with people who idolize you?
i don't think so
14. Do you have ADD?
what? add? what's that?
15. What’s one trait that you hate about yourself
well, i don't hate my trait anyway. i love all of my trait hahaha.
16. What’s your Middle name?
kusuma
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
when wiil i meet with kacamata? hem, i just think about that thing for now on hahahaha
18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday.
i didn't buy anything yesterday. i just syated at home. hahahaha
19. Name 3 beverages you regularly drink
coca cola, mineral water, pop ice. hahaha
20. Current worry right now?
i don't know hahaha
21. What side do you dress to?
from left to right, like a song hahahah
22. Favorite place to be?
my room, my course class
23. How did you bring in the New Year?
hem, my handphone, my novel, and my earphone hahaha.
24. Where would you like to go?
bali, london, paris
25. Name three people who will complete this.
i just want one people hahaha
26. Whose answers do you want to read the most?
i don't know
27. What color shirt are you wearing?
28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
what? i don't have satin sheet
29. Can you whistle?
hahaha. no, i can't
30. Favorite colors(s)?
red, brown, and b;ack
31. Could you be a pirate?
no
32. What songs do you sing in the shower?
westlife-leaving, westlife-have you ever, juatin timberlake-my love
33. Favorite girls name?
nurshanti kusuma, hahaha. that's my full name.
34. Favorite boy’s name?
my crush full name. hahaha. i think that is a best boy name that i have ever heard. haha
35. What’s in your pocket right now?
money, card, bill. hahaha
36. Last thing that made you laugh?
my crush photo hahaha
37. Best bed sheets as a child?
i forget, hahaha
38. Worst injury you’ve ever had?
here, in my face. because of measles. hahaha
39. Do you love where you live?
yes. but, sometimes i don't like here because there isn't my cat anymore. i miss m cat soo much
40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
3. one in my living room, one in my parents room, one in upstairs
41. Who is your loudest friend?
hem. actually, the loudest friend that i've had is myself. hahaha
42. How many pet do you have?
2 chicken and 10 koi. hahaha. that's my fathers
43. Does anyone have a crush on you?
i have no idea, but i hope so
44. What are the most fun things you ever did?
stalking my friends. hahaha
45. What are your favorite books?
the twilight saga, hahaha
46. What is your favorite candy?
sugus, yupi. i love 'em
47. Favorite Team?
manchester untited, garuda flexi, real madrid
48. What songs do you want played at your funeral?
i'm moslem. hahaha
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
kacamata. hahahaha
my second meme
1. How old do you look?
i think, i look like a college girl. actually, my family sometimes think that i'm a college girl, not a senior high girl. hahaha
2. Where do you live?
bandung, of course!
3. Are you waiting for something?
hell yeah!
4. What’s one pet peeve of yours that is not common?
actually, i don't have pet now. but i had a cat 1 year ago. hem. i think, he has never done something peeve to me. heehehe
5. Do you want/have kids?
yes i am
6. Have you ever thought about converting your religion?
hah, of course not!
7. Last shocking news you heard?
i forget, hahahaha
8. What was the last thing you drank?
mineral water
9. Who do you most look like in your family
both of my parents. hahaha. my face, it's look like my mothers but my body, it's look like my fathers. hahaha cacaaaat.
10. If you could have something right now, anything, what would it be?
cat, my crush, and new handphone. hahahaa
11. Where does most of your family live?
bandung and subang
12. Where did you grow up?
bandung dooong
13. Where do you want to go on vacation?
i want to go to bali, yogya, banten :D
14. Have you ever had a panic attack?
hem, sometimes yes. hahaha
15. What can’t you wait for?
hang out with my crush, just me and him hahahaha
16. When’s the last time you told someone you loved him and meant it?
i've never told someone i loved and meant it. hahaha.
17. Have your parents ever smoked pot?
hem, my father is a smoker hahaha
18. Want someone back in your life?
of course YES!
19. What do you order at the bar?
i've never been gone to bar
20. When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
i think 1 months ago, because my mother doesnt give me permission to ciwidey hahaha
21. Ever licked someone’s cheek?
WHAT? hell no
22. What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
what? peanut butter? i dont like panut butter hahaha
23. Where were you on march, 23 2010?
at home hahahaha
24. What are your nicknames?
wow. shanti and dudut. my friends call me shani but my father call me dudut. i've never known where "dudut" comes from. but, when i was a kid my father always call me dudut and until now he calls me dudut. actually, my little and my older sister has nickname like dudut too. haha
25. If you could go back in time, how far back would you go?
i've never want to go back in time. i just want to go ahead of my time. because, if i go back in time, i've never meet with my crush anyway. hahaha
wow, akhirnya gue selesai jawab pertanyaan pertanyaan itu. hahaha walopun dengan bahasa inggris yang belepotan bnaget, tapi setidaknya gue udah berusaha practice hahaha.
my first meme time
how to play~
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every entry, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you’re cool
1. How does the world see me?:
john mayer-no such thing
2. Will I have a happy life?:
justin bieber-u smile
3. What do my friends really think of me?
lenka-the show
4. Do people secretly lust after me?:
avril lavigne-hot
5. How can I make myself happy?:
justin bieber-love me, justin timberlake-my love
6. What should I do with my life?:
jsutin bieber-up
7. Will I ever have children?:
michael jackson-you're not alone
8. What is some good advice for me?:
westlife-try again
9. How will I be remembered?:
mocca-i remember
10. What is my signature dancing song?:
michael jackson-beat it
11. What do I think my current theme song is?:
ran-d'inspiration
12. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
jason mraz-geek in pink
13. What song will play at my funeral?:
jason mraz-a beautiful mess
14. What type of men do you like?:
justin timberlake-dmn girl (padahal gue sendiri cewe)
15. What is my day going to be like?:
jason mraz-wordplay
16. Will I ever have love again?
westlife-have you ever
fyuh, akhirnya semua pertanyaan udah gue jawab dengan sangat terbata bata karena gue bingung mau di isi pake lagu apa. hahaha. itu juga isinya rada teu nyambung. tapi, semoga kalian bisa menikmati aja oke! haaha :D
behind the scenario
Selasa, 23 Maret 2010
how did i fall in love with you?
ganti layout
Senin, 22 Maret 2010
indonesia jaman sekarang
Rabu, 17 Maret 2010
love me - justin bieber
My friends say I’m a fool to think
That you’re the one for me
I guess I’m just a sucker for love
‘Cuz honestly the truth is that
You know I’m never leavin’
‘Cuz you’re my angel sent from above
Baby you can do no wrong
My money is yours
Give you little more because I love ya, love ya
With me, girl, is where you belong
Just stay right here
I promise my dear I’ll put nothin above ya. above ya
Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
Kiss me, Kiss me
Say that you miss me
Tell me what I wanna hear
Tell me you (love me)
Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
Kiss me, Kiss me
Say that you miss me
Tell me what I wanna hear
Tell me u love me
People try to tell me
But I still refuse to listen
Cuz they don’t get to spend time with you
A minute with you is worth more than
A thousand days without your love, oh your love
Baby you can do no wrong
My money is yours
Give you little more because I love ya, love ya
With me, girl, is where you belong
Just stay right here
I promise my dear I’ll put nothin above ya. above ya
Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
Kiss me , kiss me
Say that u miss me
Tell me what I wanna hear
Tell me you love me.
Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
Kiss me , kiss me
Say that u miss me
Tell me what I wanna hear
Tell me you love me.
My heart is blind but I don’t care
‘Cuz when I’m with you everything has disappeared
And every time I hold you near
I never wanna let you go, oh
Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
Kiss me , kiss me
Say that u miss me
Tell me what I wanna hear
Tell me you love me.
Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
Kiss me , kiss me
Say that u miss me
Tell me what I wanna hear
Tell me you love me
nah, dekrang lagu itu yang lagi gue suka bangeeeeeeeeeet. kenapa? biasa, gue bangeeeet. gue pengen banget buat nyanyiin lagu itu depan si kacamata, tapi gileeeeeeeee nyali gue belum ada apa apa nya. hahahaha. sekarang, gue masih berusaha untuk biasa aja sama dia. tapi mau gimaan lagi coba? orang udah ngeceng, gue ga bisa biasa aja sama orang yang udah gue sayang dan selalu mengisi hari hari gue (walopun belum jadi pacar) selama setaun ke belakang ini. tapi, gue ga bisa menjadi biasa depan si kacamata. well, walopun emang mungkin dia ga cinta sama gue, my heart still breathing for him and that will last forever plus, that won't stop! hahahaha. nah, pas banget sama lirik yang "My heart is blind but I don’t care ‘cause when I’m with you everything has disappeared and every time I hold you near I never wanna let you go, oh". hahaha. tapi, kayaknya hampir semua lirik lagu yang itu tuh pas bangeeeeet. gue selalu berusaha untuk ga dingin sama dia. tapi dianya suka dingin sama gue. hem -_______- beteeeee. yaaa gimana atuh biar dia tau saya sukaaaaaaaa? ga tahan gue untuk mendem mendem kelamaan kayak gini maaaaah. lama lama sakit hati tau yang adaaaaa. huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
Selasa, 16 Maret 2010
uts dan teman
sekarang, gue mau cerita sama temen temen sekelas gue aja aaaah. sebelumnya gue mau minta maaf dulu kalo misalnya ada yang tersinggung dalam hal ini. gue di sini cuma pengen cerita tentang isi hati gue yang sebenernya tentang kalian dan gue cuma bisa berharap, isi blog gue yang ini di jadiin pelajarn buat kalian untuk lebih maju lagi okeeeeee. jadi, gue sekarang udah hampir setaun sekolah di sekolah tercinta gue. sekolah yang menjadi harapan gue dari jaman gue tk sampe sekarang. naaah, pas gue masuk di kelas X, gue senengnye kaga ada dua. happy banget lah itu, kayak anak tk baru dikasih permen sama ibunya. hahaha. gue bergaul sama temen yang cewe dan yang cowo dan akhirnya gue cocok sama semuanya. namun, pada pertengahan semester 1, semua sifat asli mereka keluar apalagi yang cewe cewe. keliatan banget lah itu yang namanya EGOIS, INDIVIDUALISTIS, MUNAFIK dan hal hal lain yang bikin aing keuheul. dan terkadang, mereka itu suka MERENDAH UNTUK MENINGGI. ngerti maksudnya? jadi, cewe cewe di kelas aing teh emang pinter pinter, lumayan manis kalo gue bilang, banyak yang pake kerudung dan hal hal bagus lainnya yang gue gamau sebut, gue takut itu ngebikin mereka ga enak sama gue karena gue terus memuji mereka padahal mereka itu ga sesempurna yang gue bilang. jadi, pernah ada suatu kasus. nilai ulangan gue dapet jelek alias ga lulus. oke, jelek disini artinya ga lulus kkm. oke, gue terima aja da emang kenyataannya kayak gitu dan itu ga bisa di ganggu gugat. gue nanya ke cewe cewe pinter itu, "eh kalian dapet nilai berapa?". muka mereka tuh ya udah malu malu gitu deeh, malu malu hayang utah urang mah. mereka bilang sambil meluk meluk kertasnya. biasanya itu, gue berkelakuan kayak gitu kalo ulangan gue dapet 0. hahahaha. merka bilang "aduh ga mau ah. malu. jelek banget gilaaaaaaa". gue bilang :ih berapa atuh? da sama aku juga ga akan di apa apain atuh". waktu itu gue masih polos banget. "jelek euy dapet 8". gue bilang dalem hati "anjing, itu bangus goblok. sia teh ga bisa mikir aing dapet berapa? aing dapet di bawah kkm dan aing biasa aja tuh. emang kalian di ajarin sama orang tua kalian untuk kayak gitu hah? anjing". *sori ya vulgar*. abis itu gue menghindar dari mereka karena hal itu. teruuus, ada tugas senrup. gue sih biasa ajalah ya dengan hasul karya sendiri. malah, gue terkadang suka bangga sendiri dengan hasil karya sendiri. gue sih ngeliatin aja hasil karya gue ke temen temen gue. mereka sih bilang "ih lucuu". gue sih bilang "alhamdulillah, nuhun" dengan muke gue yang begini hahahaha. nah, si salah satu dari mereka itu malu untuk ngeliatin hasil karya mereka. hasil karya nya teh dibungkus pake kotak terus dibungkus keresek item tebel biar ga keliatan. aing bilang aja "ih pengen liat dong." dia bilang "ga ah malu" sembari senyum senyum geuleuh tea. naaah, tibalah saatnya dinilai. yaa gue sih maju maju aja ye. naaah, waktu giliran dia itu, dianya malu malu. sampe sampe nih ya, waktu mau ngenilai hasil karyanya dia itu minta si ibu gurunya untuk ngenilai di luar. pas dia masuk, aing sih jadi ga penasaran dengan hasilnya da udah geuleuh duluan. aing sih cuma bilang untuk basa basi doang "gimana? nilainya berapa? boleh liat dong?". dia bilang "ga ah jelek". aing saking sebelnya bilang gini hampir setengah teriak "GINI YAH, HASIL KARYA ITU GUNANYA UNTUK DIPAJANG, UNTUK DI LIAT ORANG BANYAK, BUKAN UNTUK DI SEMBUNYIIN DI DALEM KRESEK KAYA GITU. KALO KAMU EMANG GA BANGGA SAMA HASIL KARYA KAMU, YA UDAH GA USAH DIBAWA KE SEKOLAH. BIKIN AJA LAGI SAMPE HASILNYA BAGUS". aing saking sebelnya bilang kayak gitu. ya atuh da ya, emang ga sebel apa di perlakukan kayak gitu sama orang? emang kalian mau di gituin sama orang? engga kan? pasti semua orang jawab GA untuk pertanyaan itu. ada lagi nih kasus lain. waktu itu teh abis di bagiin hasil IQ. oke gue mengakui kalo iq gue emang ga tinggi tapi setidaknya di kertasnya di bilangin kalo iq gue diatas rata rata/ oke gue terima. nah, terus gue nanya ke salah satu dari mereka. "kamu dapet berapa eh?. dan seperti biasa jawabannya "ga ah gamau jelek". gue bilang "berapa sih? sebut aja atuh. 120an? kamu mau tau iq aku berapa? ?" dia jawab "129" itu juga kalo ga salah ya. yaudah aing jawab aja "aing 113. puas?". gila, disitu aing puas bangetlah marahnya. aing cuma bilang "kamu teh jangan kayak gitu. ga enak tau sama yang bersangkutan apalagi kayak aku". huahahahha. besoknya, dia cuma bilang "shanti, maafin aku ya tentang yang kemaren". oke gue terima.
tapi, entah kenapa masalah tentang tali pertemanan kita berantakan hanya karena masalah itu. aneh gue juga. entah karena kita kurang kompak apa kayak gimana. tapi, kayaknya jawabannya itu adalah kurang kompak. kalo gue dan yang lain sih sama cowo cowo ga pernah ada gimana gimana. tapi, kalo sama mereka, aing udah enek duluan. suka sebel aja gitu ngebayanginnya teh. tapi, gue sih kalo sama cowo cuma sebel sama satu orang. you know who lah yaaa. ga usah gue sebut. kenapa gue bisa sebel sama dia? dia itu nyebelin dan sok pinter walopun emang aslinya dia pinter. aing tau itu. tapi, dia itu selalu merasa aing yeuh yang paling tau, kalian ga boleh lebih tau dari aing. aaaaaaaaaaaaaah bete urang. sekarang sih harapan gue cuma gue bisa akrab dengan temen temen sekelas, deket lagi sama temen temen, kompakan lagi kayak dulu, dan aing gamau punya temen yang suka MERENDAH UNTUK MENINGGI. aing benci itu semua. kalo mau merendah untuk meninggi, silahkan kalian pergi dari aing. ga usah kalian tongolin beungeut kalian hadapan aing sebelum aing tonjok kalian.
*well, sebelumnya saya mau minta maaf aja kalo yang merasa, saya udah sebutkan diatas tadi sebelum bercerita tentang ini*.
Kamis, 11 Maret 2010
have you ever - westlife
[Chorus:]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right?
Have you ever?
Have you ever?
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand?
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away?
You'd give anything
To make them feel the same?
Have you ever searched for words
To get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start?
[Repeat chorus]
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life?
You'd do just about anything
To look into their eyes?
Have you fin'ly found the one
You've given your heart to
Only to find that one
Won't give their heart to you?
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait
For that day when they will care?
[Repeat chorus]
[Bridge:]
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby?
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand
How I need you next to me?
Gotta get you in my world
'Cause, baby, I can't sleep
[Repeat chorus twice]
Have you ever?
lagu ini sekarang yang lagi mewakili perasaan gue yang ga menentu. kemaren, gile bangeeet. gue galau bow. hahaha. di angkot gue cuma bisa diem mikirin planning gue ngajak main temen temen. tapi, entah kenapa gue mikir kalo itu ga bakal berhasil untuk ngajak si kacamata. huaaaaaaaaaaaa sebel gue kalo udah mikrin si kacamata teh. kemaren doooong, gue ga ngoobrol sama sekali sama budak eta. apa apaan cobaaaaa? biasanya tuh ya, kita tuh ngobrol bareng, pulang bareng, segala galanya bareng. setelah dia naik motor, apa coba? gue ga ngerasa kalo gue lagi deketan sama dia. gue malah ngerasanya kalo gue itu lagi ga ada apa apanya sama si kacamata. mau smsan? hahaha lucu. ga pernah di bales. entah karena dia ga punya pulsa ato entah dia males kali ya ama gue. chat fb? hahaha kapan coba dia ol fb? jarang bangeeet. yman? atulaaaaah. semakin lucu ini namanya. makanya, lirik yang pas "What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby? What do I gotta say to get to your heart To make you understand How I need you next to me? Gotta get you in my world 'Cause, baby, I can't sleep" itu gueeeeeeeeee banget. waktu malem aja, gue hampir nangis hanya karena hal itu. aduuuh, gue merasa cemen banget sih jadi cewe. gue ga mau nembak duluan tapi gue sangat sangat sangat ingin kalo kacamata itu jadi orang yang ada di sebelah saya (baca : pacar). banyak yang bilang sama saya "aduh shan jangan tembak duluan deh. harga diri bow sebagai cewe". dan ada juga yang bilang "aduuh udah deh tembak aja. emang kamu mau di gantung gantung gini perasaannya selama setaun lebih? dia kan pasif, kamunya aktif. ya udah kamu tembak aja". nah, sekarang gue sangat bingung dengan 2 pendapat itu. jadi sekarang apa yang bisa gue lakukan sekarang untuk bisa selalu deket ngobrol sama dia? setiap malam gue selalu berdoa sama Allah SWT. kalo gue itu pengen bisa selalu ngeliat, bareng, ngobrol bareng dan segala galanya bareng. tapi ko kayaknya belum di kabulkan yaaaa? hem. gue sih cuma bisa berharap kalo gue selalu deket dan ngobrol bareng sama kacamata. amin.
Selasa, 09 Maret 2010
are you gonna be my boy?
terus, abis itu uti dateng. tapi ding emang rencananya uti mau dateng ko. teruuus, gue langusng deh ngadu. om bilang gini "shan kamu itu salah taktik. harusnya kalo emang mau pulang bareng itu, ngomongnya harus private, jangan di depan orang banyak kayak gitu. pasti semua cowo nolak kalo di gituin. terus kamunya jangan maksa, ntar dianya takut buat deket sama kamu. kalo pengen dapet cowo yang tipe nya pasif kayak kacamata itu, kamu harus berani dan harus perjuangin banget. susah loh buat bisa deket dengan dia teh. karena kamunya aktif, jadi kamu yang harus nyatain duluan kalo kamu suka sama dia teh." gue komen "hah? nyatain duluan? ga ngerti". om bilang "iya nyatain duluan. kamu yang tembak dia duluan. daripada ntar nyeri hate." gue komen lagi "eh buaset deh, masa cewe yang nembak duluan? temen aku pernah bilang ih jangan nembak duluan. harga diri loooh. gitu om. gimana dong?". om jawab "ih jaman sekarang mah udah biasa cewe yang nembak duluan. jadi, biasa we atuh. terus, kalo ga berani langsung, lewat telepon aja dulu". terus gue nyeritain tentang rencana dodol gue, ngajak jalan berdua doang sama kacamata. om bilang "ih jangan berdua teuing atuh. banyakan aja dulu. terus ntar bilang ke temen temen kamu kalo kamu itu lagi pengen berdua doang. nah, pas disitu kamu ngomong. gitu aja". nah gue langsung mikir, iya yah, bener juga. waaaaaah, si om ini dasar. kuliahnya di manajemen cinta. huahahahahahaha. daaaan, gue baru tau kalo si om yang aslinya gileeee abid ternyata bisa jadi orang yang bijaksana abis kalo gue bilang.
kacamata, apa bener yang dibilang sama om kalo aku itu HARUS nembak kamu? kacamata, saya udah tersihir oleh semua pesona yang udah kamu pancarkan ke saya. kacamata, kamu yang selama ini mewarnai hari hari saya, kamu yang bikin saya seneng ketawa bahagia sedih dan semua perasaan yang ada dalam diri saya bercampur jadi satu. kacamata, saya pengen banget bilang tentang perasaan saya ke kamu, tapi entah kenapa nyali saya selalu ciut kalo saya deket sama kamu. kacamata, saya cuma pengen bilang je t' aime ke kamu. kamu mau ga jadi bagian hidup saya? kamu mau ga jadi salah satu orang yang yang berpengaruh buat saya? kamu mau ga jadi orang yang mewarnai hidup saya? kamu mau ga jadi pacar saya? see, all i want you to do is be my love. kacamata, saya berharap kamu jawab iya untuk semua pertanyaan diatas bukan karena paksaan dari saya ato siapapun. kacamata, saya mau jawaban itu dateng tulus dari hati kamu karena kamu tulus cinta dan sayang sama saya. muaaaah, love you sooo kacamataaaa. kacamata, kalo seandainya kamu baca postingan ini, saya sangat berharap kamu ga jauhin saya hanya karena postingan ini oke. mungkin kalo kita ga jadian, kita bisa jad temen baik okeeeee. :D